My Pain knows me

I have dealt with pain in ways unknown to man

I have shed tears where men find laughter

I have journeyed into oblivion of shame and reproach

I lost count of times when my heart didn’t give up on me

I have lain on the bed of sadness with my troubles as dreams

Even sadness had a glimpse of happiness when i walked in.

My complexion is as dark as my future ... i see void

My tears are the sweetest drink quenching my thirst.

Hope they say lies ahead, for me, rope i see hanging abreast.

Pain kidnapped me and after so many days

Pain felt so painful with itself for the cheap ransom

My life would offer for a painless freedom.

Head cast down i walked away from pain embracing nothingness

Then i saw death clad in black        

With the rumoured devilish grin

So it’s true, the picture of death painted in human mind.

He was grinning, am sure he hasn’t struck in a while

It was a grin of deadly defiance in the moment

And death came charging towards me. Still grinning

And then i smiled and ran towards it. Still smiling

The look on his face changed from grinning to grimace

Death must have thought i was deadlier...

Then he stopped...

But i didn’t, this was my last hope of leaving earth

And i will not let it go.

I have never seen anything or anyone ran from me

In such a way that death did. He ran as much as he could

So fast that i was sure something was chasing me

That made death even afraid of me...

Death felt fear, than the fear upon my life

If death can’t kill me, i ponder, what can take my life

I knew God wouldn’t take me, so no point in asking Him to.

And I couldn’t ask God the question that accustomed the revelation

Of defeat, denial, sad, sorrowful and neglected human ‘’God, Why me ‘’